Freeing a Ministry From Harlotry and Murder

A few years ago one of the international apostles of a very large ministry called to schedule a session with me but gave me no idea why he was coming. Shortly after he called, I felt totally unworthy to minister to him, because of his stature and my terribly sordid past.

The night before he came I felt so attacked. I felt the enemy of my soul was there to kill me, and no matter how I prayed the attack continued relentlessly.

I doubtfully asked God if my struggle had anything to do with the man I was seeing the next day, and some peace came immediately. I felt led to go to the word and as I read I saw a verse that said "it is all because of the harlotrous woman." In my flesh that verse only seemed to confirm how unworthy I was to minister to him because of all my past sins. But, I felt some peace and soon went to sleep for a few hours.

When we met the next day I asked him what the most disappointing part of his life was. He explained that no matter what he tried to do to resolve it, he would always go through a horrible nine-month season of depression every time he was being sent to open a new office in a foreign land.

He'd sometimes be invited to come to a foreign city, but then the enemy would assault his heart and mind relentlessly. He would be assaulted with fears of dying, and irrational fears that his godly wife was also going to abandon him.

Then suddenly in about nine months new supporters would rally to his side, all the old fears would be allayed, and life seemed worth living again.

Suddenly I remembered the word from the night before that I thought was only for me. The HS prompted me to give him that word. Who wants to tell a highly esteemed minister his mother was a harlotrous woman?

Very reluctantly I said, "It is all because of the harlotrous woman in your life." I explained the nine month cycle might indicate that he may have been concieved by a woman who did not love his dad, didn't want him and even wished him or his gone or dead.

This man looked stunned. He asked how did I know that. He was a staunch non-charismatic and he did not believe the spiritual gifts were for our use today, including prophecy and words of knowledge or wisdom.

After testing me for several minutes he finally conceded that his mother had been a prostitute in Europe during WW II, and got pregnant by an American soldier.

Who knows what sin was in the man who got her pregnant, but he did know that his mother had wished for a miscarriage, perhaps even attempted an abortion, and finally decided to carry him to full term but to put him up for adoption or abandon him somewhere. After he was born the woman's mother took the child in and then moved to the United States to raise him.

At five or six he was told that he was adopted. Later he was told the truth about how he had been concieved. He was told to simply forget about his mother. And, that's not bad counsel for a little boy who probably couldn't find his mom if he life depended on it.

Since his grandmother had been such a wonderfully loving mom to him he never knew there would be a cost for the way he was concieved carried and abandoned. So, he grew up not understanding that he would one day have to forgive the sin that was sinned against him by his real mom and dad.